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Amanda coached on the following:

1. (06:15) – Manuals for my children. Especially with Christmas traditions, I “expect” everyone to be engaged and participating and I know with a 4 & 2 year old that isn’t realistic. But then I take it personally, “why am I even doing this if no one cares?” I think I know the answer-just let you of your manual. But how can I do that?
2. (23:34) – I’m having a hard time wanting to do things my husband has seen in porn. I feel like there’s a block there and can’t fully let go during sex.
   I’m also struggling with eroticism. When I see or hear something that’s potentially arousing I just get embarrassed and have anxiety. Or is it that I’m embarrassed because I am aroused?!? It doesn’t feel like arousal since I’m so embarrassed. I told my husband I feel broken and he said not broken, but weird!
   I’m wondering if it could be, too, that I think it’s arousing for my husband and then I worry and/or get angry-because of past porn use. 
3. (42:20) – I need a reset.  I feel like my emotions are spiraling out of control.  Life is overwhelming.  I have no time for myself. I’m feeling a ton of resentment.